Poster Girl

They wanted to make me the poster girl

The ‘I’ll do whatever you want me to do’ girl

The most beautiful

The most liked.

They wanted to make me the shut up girl

The ‘I’ll say whatever you say’ girl

The most invisible,

The least spoken in the room

They wanted to make me the real life doll

The, ‘let you pull the strings’ doll

The most perfect.

The most adored.

I wanted to be my own girl

To do whatever I wanted

To say whatever I wanted

To pull the strings, myself

To be real.

I didn’t need to be perfect, or to be adored

Or to be the face of it:

I’m not the face of a body that is not my own,

Anymore.